53 questions about Al.

So I got bored waiting for Victor to come home so I found this interesting questionnaire on Facebook. My shrink recommended to participate in activities that made me feel younger, so yeah. :) Here goes.

1.Spell your name with songs.

All The Pretty Horses by ...

La Bamba by Ritchie Valens

Papa Don't Preach by Madonna

Have You Seen Her by M.C. Hammer

Ode to Joy by ...

Natural Woman by Aretha Franklin

Santa Clause is Coming to Town

Emotions by Mariah Carey

2.Name: Alphonse Frankenstein
3.Birth date: I forget sometimes
4.Nickname: Al
5.Eye Color: Blue
6.Hair Color: gray

7.The shoes you wore today: These really comfortable leather shoes
8.Your fear(s): death
9.Goal you’d like to achieve: Live to see my children happily married
10./Your best physical feature: hmmm, maybe my hair

11.Most missed memory?: Walking by the lake with Caroline :(


This Or That…
12.Girlfriend or Boyfriend?: Caroline
13.Night or Day?: Day
14.Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
15.Cappuccino or coffee: How about good old tea?


Do You…

16.Take a shower everyday: once a month 

17.Like(d) high school: It was ok
18.Want to get married: Not again
19.Get motion sickness: yeah, sometimes the jolting of the horses makes me ask the driver to stop.
20.Think you’re a health freak: Nah, I'm going to die anyways
21.Get along with your parents: They're dead


In the past month…
22.Eaten an entire box of Oreo's: why would I eat a box?
23.Been on Stage: no but sometimes i feel as though my life is straight out of a play or a book.
24.Gone skating: no, my knees are bad.
25.Made homemade cookies: That's a woman job!
 

26.Number of people I could trust with my life: Caroline, Victor, Elizabeth
27.Number of CD's that I own: Is that supposed to be dirty?
28.Number of tattoos: um...
29.Number of piercings:..

Personal Quiz
30.Who were you with yesterday?: my family
31.Where are you?: In my house in Belrive
32.Is tomorrow going to be a good day?: hopefully, as soon as Victor gets back

THE PAST
33.Ever thrown up in public?: no
34.Passed out because of alcohol?: No
35.What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW?: I'm worried about Victor, I feel as if something is happening to him.

THE FUTURE
36.kind of home would you like? A home full of grandchildren
37.Where do you see yourself in 5 years?: Surrounded by grandchildren

IN GENERAL
38.Do you like candy necklaces?: They make those?

39.Do you listen to music every day?: The music in my head
40Have you ever won an award?: Yes, world's greatest dad :) 
41.When were you the saddest in your whole life?: I can't decide between Caroline's death or the day William was found.
42.What time is it?: Late, where is Victor?
43.Do you use eBay to buy or sell?: Both 
44.Who makes you mad?: Death


ANGER SECTION
45. What do you do when you’re mad?: I try to calm down
46. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?: I kicked Victor out of the house once
47. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: No
 

CRYING SECTION
48. When was the last time you actually cried?: Last night
49. Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yes
50. Do certain songs make you cry?: Yes
51. What usually makes you cry?: death

HAPPY SECTION

52.Are you usually a happy person?: I try my best, but it's so hard sometimes
53.What makes you the happiest?: Being with my family

I sit here in this melancholy world...

~Chapter 9~


It seems that ever since the Unmentionable [Justine D< (angry face)] was executed, things have been even more gloomy than before. Victor is inconsolable and I see his suffering. I don't understand why the Unmentionable  needs his tears or Elizabeth's. But as always, life goes on. I have learned that the hard way.I am currently battling with forgiving the Unmentionable and helping my Victor see that by being sad all the time, prevents him from being useful in his daily routines. He seems to not understand though, he seems completely shut off from the world nowadays. Inconsolable and out of reach. Maybe a change of scenery will do him good, do all of us good. The doctor says that I should take it easy. Apparently my health isn't too good. The doctor blames it on the recent events, but I also blame it on age.


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We are here in out house at Belrive. I see Victor from my window right now. It is late at night and he is heading down to the boats. I don't know if being alone is the best thing for him. But he has seemed to  be improving if not just a little. But sometimes I sense a self-destructive atmosphere when I'm near him. I would not bear it if he lead to his own demise. He also tends to take long walks by himself. To where he goes no one knows because he never takes anyone with him. I fear he will set out one day and never come back. Or worse, he'll come back lifeless, in a cart with finger markings on his neck. Oh! My mind tortures me day and night with these horrible scenarios.  And dear Elizabeth! She is no longer that spark of sunshine. She no longer takes delight in the little things, instead she spends her days and nights crying. I had hoped this change of scenery would do us all good. But it seems to bring about no improvement. I will just be patient and wait for the healing wind of this beautiful place to blow all our troubles away. 

The Trial :(

~Chapter 8~


Today, the whole family was forced to attend Justine's trial. She was serene as she appeared in the court room. I could barely stand the hateful atmosphere in there. There were so many people in there that judged her by what they had heard. They didn't know her like we did. They didn't know she was  incapable of such a heinous crime. The evidence was overwhelming. All this took their toll on Justine. I watched her face change from calm to turmoil and horror. She pleaded her innocence stating her story. She claimed that she had no idea how the locket of my late wife ended up in her pocket, just that it was there all of a sudden. This puts some doubt in me, but i try to resist it. How could she have not noticed it suddenly there? All of Justine's friends seemed to abandon her in her time of need until our dear Elizabeth came forward to speak on her behalf, but it changed not the opinion of the people there. It proved too much for Victor, that he rushed out of the courtroom. We shall have to wait until tomorrow and hear whether they have condemned Justine or spared her life.

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Alas! The murderer confessed in her last hours. It angers me and pains me to think that Justine led us to believe her innocence! Her calm demeanor and all the years spent under our hospitality and she dares betray us by taking a beloved one? All for ambition? She had us fooled! Elizabeth insisted on going with Victor to the murderess. I could not stand it, but in the end she went. Justine is dead now. In her death I hoped to find peace in knowing my son's murder was accounted for and she will be suffering the torments of hell. But my soul finds no rest. Why must a murder be appeased with another killing? I fear I will not last longer for this grief in my heart pains me so. The only thing that keeps me going through these days is my beloved family. I have learned to keep them close so as to not let them be ripped away from me. It will not happen to me again.

My Name is Alphonse...

~Chapter 7~


My friends and family call me Al. I'm starting this blog because of my shrink's recommendation. He told me to write all my feelings down and share them with my family. Seems like I'm having a little trouble speaking my feeling out loud. Truth is, i can't believe tragedy loves me. First my wife, and now my dear son William, my beacon, my light is gone. I blame myself though, I should have looked out for him more. Elizabeth unjustly blames herself but truly it is I who suggested a walk in those darn woods! I was the one that pushed everyone for  ten more minutes! If anyone is guilty of murder it is I.To think he suffered at the hands of this despicable villain is enough to boil my blood. Nobody truly believes Justine was the evil doer. She is like family to all of us and incapable of such transgressions against humanity, much less a boy beloved to all. We have lost two beloved people in one blow. Surely the fates have conspired against us. The only reconciliation I get from this, is that soon, I will see my beloved son Victor. Maybe he will help clear this whole mess up. But no one can bring William back to life. No one has that power but God himself.


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Victor is back home with us. He looks very different from the vibrant young man that left our household a couple years ago. It seems as if there's a heavy weight glooming about his demeanor. Seeing him filled the hole I had from the day he left us. He insists Justine is not the killer of our dear William. We all want to believe him desperately but all evidence points to her. I have mixed feelings concerning her. For now, all that's left to do is hope and pray that if she is innocent, her innocence shines through and helps her avoid certain death. 
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